It’s been a maddening month of May. Maddening not because I’ve lost my temper or my sanity (almost, just almost), but because of the many responsibilities to meet. There’s a major project at work that will end after June and two adults events in June to publicise, both of which have taken up much of my time.
And once again, I’ve slipped into the mode of doing than being – doing to fulfil my duties rather than being a disciple of Christ through growing in intimacy with God, character and love for people. I thank God for the many thoughts today from sermon, fellowship with a sister, and the CGL training to bring me to see that I need to grieve over the state of my heart. It’s really exasperating that I can know the right things to do but not obey. I’ve a wicked heart, prone to wander, prone to leave the God I love. I need to return to fellowship with God. I look forward to a new month to work out this fellowship with God.
Prone to wander, Lord, I feel it
Prone to leave the God I love
Here’s my heart, Lord
Take and seal it
Seal it for Thy courts above