I writhed under the moral responsibility of loving someone. If it were the old me, I would have walked away. Why do I allow myself to be sapped of my energy and be steeped in frustration?
I thought, ‘I don’t have to love; 又不是我欠你的’. Yet, at that moment I recalled,
Let no debt remain outstanding, except the continuing debt to love one another, for he who loves his fellowman has fulfilled the law.
‘还真的是我欠你的。But I don’t owe you my responsibility. I owe you love’
Because I want to love, I will not give up. Not just yet. I will believe by faith that God, who has given me a heart of flesh, will help me to love, even as I surrender my indignation and obstinance.