… but I just needed an outlet. But I made it a point to tell my frustrations to God before I typed this. And be careful: God speaks to you when you earnestly seek to communicate with Him.
Anyway, I was just exasperated by the numerous things that didn’t go my way. Why do I always have to give way to other people? Like, change my schedule so that others can keep theirs? Why do I say so many ‘yes’ to others, but ‘no’ to myself? I wish that I could say more nos to people and more yes to myself, but I know that it would only do me harm. I would probably end up to be the egocentric, self-absorbed, narcissistic human being who I don’t want to be (like the apathetic commuters that I witnessed in the MRT train today. I can swear that this seated lady was looking at this standing pregnant lady right in her swollen belly without flinching a muscle. Pathetic.) But when I prayed, my Abba Father only reminded me of the grace that I received this day from a sister. And that favour came because she chose to say no to her own interest while putting mine before hers.
*Sigh* Why am I not thinking more like Christ in this aspect? Right now, Philippians 2 is just stuck in my head – Humility. Consider others better than me. Look to others’ interest. Do everything without complaining or arguing.
Die, just die.
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Amen and very well said…Wish I can be more like you! =)
Just wish to add that don’t feel guilty or inadquent in anyway.. But to rejoice!!
We are in Christ and are free. Doesn’t mean that we are not called to live the ‘new way’ just that we have grace as ‘cushion’ and the ‘Holy Spirit’ as ‘guidance’.
Just some thoughts.. what do you think?
Haha… We are now having our sermon in Romans, and these two weeks we have been feasting on Rom 6. I’ve also been wordkeeping the passage. All I can say is this: What shall we say, then? Shall we go on sinning so that grace may increase? BY NO MEANS! We died to sin; how can we live in it any longer? Or don’t you know that all of us who were baptised into Christ Jesus were baptised into His death? We were therefore buried with Him through baptism into death, in order that just as Christ was raised from the dead through the glory of the Father, we too may live a new life. (Rom 6:1-4 🙂
I’m just learning to live by grace each day and not abuse it…